they are not my classmates
they are people within my class whom i hate
they are my classhates
I graduate high school in four days and I think I may be the only person who hasn’t shed a tear over it. To be perfectly honest I can’t think of a single thing I will miss about Mill Creek High School or even high school in general. I started freshman year with tons of friends and here I stand, graduating with not a single one. I literally don’t have any friends anymore. Everyone is so fake and unreliable. I’d rather be alone than surround myself with people like that. I hate my senior class. I can’t wait to have that diploma in my hands and never see these people again.
It’s so uncomfortable for me being around people every day that are so different from me. All these people care about is getting fucked up and partying and I’m the complete opposite. Like is there something wrong with me for not obsessing over alcohol and weed? Because I feel like the only person at my school who hates being drunk or high. Yes I’ve been drunk before and yes I’ve been high before, however all I could think about during those moments was wanting to be sober. Either way, they were bad decisions accompanied by bad company.
My mom always told me growing up that friends come and go and that the friends I started freshman year with wouldn’t be the friends I graduated with. I never believed her but my goodness, was she right. It’s unfortunate really but so very true. It wasn’t easy being surrounded by untrustworthy, selfish, disloyal, malicious people these four years. I see my high school diploma as an award for completing my education, but also as proof I got through the bullshit high school threw at me.
do you ever just “what the fuck is the point” so hard that you stop everything you’re doing and stare and pretty much wonder why you don’t vanish from existence because the level of done you are should pretty much deconstruct your biological makeup